A Little About Me

I'm Kala.. Yes there's no Y in my name. Mom says it's because she didn't want me to have a hard time writing it in kindergarten.. Silly I know but that's Mom. I grew up in the small town of Nokomis as the youngest of 3 other siblings Shane, Michael and Mindy. The song American Honey relates most to my life... "She grew up on the side of the road, where the church bells ring and strong love grows, she grew up good, she grew up slow, like American Honey" I am going to be sharing my stories of the past present and what I hope to accomplish in my future. I am a very genuine girl and pray and hope my life in the future brings me happiness and joy and still be the genuine person I am... Life Is Short Lets Make The Best Of It!!!

Friday, July 30, 2010

I will remember you. Will you remember me? Strongman, Superman, In Memory of Matt Cole

Did you met the strongest man? Inside and out? One that had unbelievable strength? One that had a will to be the best and nothing less? One that was always happy, always there for a friend, and one that always put a smile on your face no matter how mad you were? I have... Matt Cole! A man that people now look up to more that he is with us only in spirit.. I do not of course know him as well as his family or very close friends but this is what I can tell you about Matt Cole. I met Matt in May of 2008 where I knew of him in school but I was very shy in high school. I remember when Matt won prom king.. Oh how all the girls wished to be Lara and dancing with him.. Well maybe not ALL the girls but a pretty decent amount. I know I was one of them.. Then years later I got to be be one of the girls to get to know Matt. He wasn't shy out of high school that's for sure. I think the first thing he said to me was " I'm Matt Cole and I will kick you in the head" Haha! Jokingly of course! And after he laughed about it he realized that I was NOT laughing.. He apologized then asked if I wanted a ride on his bike.. Haha! What a nice way to make up for the threat he made 30 seconds before.. haha! Matt was always smiling, he always had a heart of gold.. He really cared for his family let me tell you! He always talked about how much he looked up to his big sister Mindy and how he could always kick his little brother Mitch's butt when they were growing up.. He always was the guy to go to in need of advice, or for a laugh, or just to go on a bike ride and grab his favorite Bobby's Ice Cream treat! He may have lived in a box but it worked for Matt.. His living room was no bigger than a public bathroom and he still made it comfy for visitors even if his crotch rocket was in the middle of the room.. His smile was so warming and welcoming.. You talked to him for 3 minutes he made you feel like he knew you for a life time.. His BIG blue eyes were the color of the sky's he is in now... Matt was taken from us December 5th 2008 just 8 short months after I really got to know Matt and the kind-hearted person he was. On the morning of December 5th Matt was traveling home from work at about 5a.m. and was hit by a drunk driver. His life was cut short by far too many years.. The things Matt really taught me in life is what I try and pass on to people.. It really is too short to worry about the small stuff, always try and be the positive friend, forgive easily but don't forget were human, and that you can do absolutely ANYTHING you set your mind to and to NEVER give up. He always made everyone smile and still to this day when anyone shares a story or memory of Matt there is smiles, tears and laughter. Matt was a little goofy he always got really excited about what he was talking about and if you didn't seem as excited he was he would get just laugh and say "oh you don't care" haha! He really meant a lot to many people! He had tons of friends and was close to his family like I said.. Matt really loved his Mama! He always said "My Mom and I have a great relationship and I don't have to talk to her everyday but she knows I love her" I could really go on and on about Matty but bottom line he was a very good friend to me and still to this day I think about him often.. He is I believe in Heaven with some of his other cousins or family members looking down on us and always close to our heart. As a strong man Matt was, he lives through us. We daily put a smile on our face, his family mostly, and they push through daily.. They too have the Strongman blood run through them! Matt, I know you are most likely reading this, somehow I believe that you are! I want to tell you Happy Birthday.. 25 years ago today a strong man came into the world and Matt you are missed by many. More than you know! I want to tell you thank you for everything you have taught me in life, to always do what I think is right, and be happy for myself.. I love you to Heaven and back and I know someday I will see you again... Love Kala! But I will remember you Will you remember me? Don't let your life pass you by Weep not for the memories... Thanks for reading! God Bless! *Kala~

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Eye Of The Tiger

July 23rd.. Friday.. I had a Kidney Infection and Urinary Tract Infection going on! But, it was the evening before my first 5K.. I have never been a runner or for that matter been into exercising until about March. I generally walk 3miles a day sometimes 3.5.. With Sundays off! Haha.. I said to myself "I want to do something different in my life" We all know I look up to my older sister Mindy and she told me about this 5K in Springfield (an hour north from me) where they were holding a 3rd annual race for a state trooper who had been killed in an accident in 2007 I believe. Now I didn't even know what a 5K was.. If people walked, if you HAD to sprint the whole way, or even how long it was in miles.. I never run! EVER! But I said "What the heck, why not try" So here I go up to Springfield the evening before on medicine and all.. I say to myself that "My Kidneys really hurt but I want to do this I'm going to do this!" I stay at my sisters where she tells me don't load up on carbs or lots of sugar the evening before.. As I sit and eat my grilled chicken breast steamed broccoli and noodles I said "So is what I am eating okay" haha.. Mindy looks at me and laughs knowing I have no idea what I am doing or getting myself into.. Thinking that this isn't going to be my thing and I wont like it! A good nights rest was also needed.. Well I slept on a futon that was so so SO uncomfortable!!! Up more than I slept that night I still did not care.. I had the mind set that "I'm doing it I don't care" I wake up.. My kidneys are KiLlInG me.. Still not giving up on what I said I was going to do.. That it was too close to give up now... 7:30 a.m. I'm up ready, got the Ipod good to go, and a breakfast bar in my tummy with some water! I started to feel really excited, yet nervous as to where I wanted to puke.. I'm not a runner, I will be last, Am I going to be able to finish, Maybe I'll just do the 1mile walk... NO I'm doing it... AS I get in the car Lissette (sister-in-law) Says "You can do it Kala" with a smile on her face.. "I know I'm Just nervous" I replied... We pull into the LLCC campus and I see all these TINY girls with TONED muscles.. Little tanks and just plain Fit!! Ugh.. I'm going to be last its going to take me like an hour and 1/2 to do this.. I'm going to look retarded... >> >> >> Fast Forward, we get our numbers 52 was on my Matt Cole shirt...(he too was taken away in a car accident) It was going to be the last one rolling in.. I go up to the starting line.. I hear a girl say "I ran it the other day in 45 minutes" I said to myself "that's my goal" I have chills down my back as the Honor Guard is holding the flag and the National Anthem is being played Then I say "I'm doing this for myself, to better myself, to be proud of my self.. But most of all I'm doing it for Brian and Matt! God, be with me and give me the will and strength to finish!" OFF WE GO!!! I am playing my music and running.. I get to the one mile mark I am still running.. How is this even possible.. All the thoughts running through my head... I picked out a runner and said "She is my goal I'm going to beat her" I start to slow down feeling like I am going to puke.. Walking is okay but keep the pace lets power walk.. I power walked for it seemed like 20 seconds and then ran for what FeLt forever.. Realistically it was most likely a minute and 1/2.. I get to the 1/2 way.. All at once I feel very emotional All these people are running for the cause of a Trooper who's life was cut short.. AS I type this I have goosebumps on my legs and chills.. It really touched me as I thought about all these people and what they were here for! To show support to this family who has had a tough time.. On my Ipod came an artist called Jeremy Camp a christian rock artist.. A song name that I cant recall but was talking about strength and courage hallelujah I replayed this song 3 different times as I thought about Brian and Matt and how I didn't know Brian but Matt was up there telling him how much I don't run and how he would be proud.. A tear ran down my face as I looked up and thanked God for the strength he given me >> >> Almost to the finish line the best feeling ever my sister Mindy came to finish the race with me and how she had been done a good 20 minutes before me! She said how are you and all I said was I don't even know.. I see the finish line.. 43 43 was on the clock.. I said Okay min I'm beating my goal.. I start to hear everyone cheer and applaud me as I ran through the finish line.. 44.04 was on the clock.. I beat my goal! I finished! I felt great! and I WASN'T LAST! I beat the girl I said I would beat! and I'm not a runner!!! It's the eye of the tiger
It`s the thrill of the fight Rising up to the challenge of our rival And the last known survivor Stalks his prey in the night And he's watching us all with the eye of the tiger!! I had a thrill of the race and I rose to my own challenge I picked my prey to beat and I survived!!! You can do anything you set your mind to!! Have faith in yourself and believe that YOU CAN DO IT!! Thanks for reading and God Bless! *Kala~

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Theres A Hero

There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away
Everyone has there own hero.. Some is there Mom, Dad, Grandparents, or a family member of some sort.. Now My Mother is my absolute rock and I hold everything i can onto her. She means more to me than I can explain but this is about my sister.. Mindy.. She prayed her little heart out for me let me tell you. Three hours straight she prayed to god for me to come along.. Well one day her and my mom went to the doctor and the doctor said to my mom now you don't have diabetes but you are pregnant. YAY! So the doctor thought.. Nope my mom cried and cried truth is she wanted to be done having children but here I came.. And when she got into the car Mindy said "Mom whats wrong?" and mom said while having tears run down her face, "your going to have a little brother or sister" and Mindy shouted for joy thanked God for her answered prayers.. She really really wanted to be a big sister.. All throughout my Moms pregnancy with me she was sick and hating life but my sister was always there to help mommy anyway she could.. She was already a good big sister and I wasn't even around yet.. But 9 months later here I came.. and My big sister realized that I needed attention for I was sick when I was born and needed my mom's attention and I took some away from my sister and at the age of 9 she really needed mom around and baby sister was there too.. :( Not exactly what she had in mind.. But fast forward a few years.. My sister and I hated each other as much as any other pairs of siblings.. We fought ALL the time.. She was always right I was always wrong.. I learned tho.. It was easier for her to think that I always thought she was right :) But... Little did my big sister know when I walked away I said to myself under my breath that I was the one that was right.. At 9 and my sister was 18 haha.. Can you imagine fighting with a 12 year old at the age of 21 haha.. Ohh my! It was always Shane sticking up for Mindy and Michael sticking up for me! He never let anyone say or do anything to me.. Saved my life one day actually but that's a whole other story.. Fast forward a few more years.. Now at the age of 21 and my sister 30 I tell you what, this woman has taught me so much about life that I really dont think a lot of other siblings do.. She for one taught me how to punch haha If I ever get into trouble I know how to stick up for myself. How to save a life.. With just a tender smile or hello. Her heart is what makes her the person she is.. An absolute joy to be around. Even when she's being bull headed you just have to laugh.. But she Is my hero. She always is straight with me about boys or life or jobs or friendships.. Doesn't tip toe around my feelings but its what I usually need to hear. She would help anyone out yet she would put anyone in there place! She's just a plain bad ass.. The bad ass that im not LOL just for laughs guys just for laughs.. But anyway.. She is my sister.. She is my hero, my rock and she will always be there for me! I want to say, Mindy, I am sorry for all those times that I needed Mom to myself and you couldn't have her around.. I am sorry that I hurt your feelings when I was 5 and told you I hated you because you yelled at me.. I am sorry for all our fights, for you usually being right and me telling on you to mom... Im sorry you got grounded for saying shut up to mom when I said to mom that you shouldn't be in trouble although she didn't care even when I said "fine shut up mom"... I want to thank you for everything you have done for me.. Everything you have givin up to make sure I have something.. For calling me 100 times when I have a broken heart just to listen to me cry.. For doing all you could when one of my best guy friends passed away.. You are always there, and I always appreciate it! You will never be replaced in my life no matter how good of a person someone is they cant take your place.. I love you and I as your little sister am always here for you.. For I will promise to reach out a hand for you to hold, to be that hope when It feels like its gone.. Give you the will to carry on and I promise you will find truth when a hero is here for you! =) Kala~

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Would You Know My Name...

Would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven? Tears in heaven... I know I do not have many followers but I have been up 2 nights straight thinking about nothing but how and why some things happen... As we all know how the circle of life works but generally it goes like this... Baby cries, lots of diapers, first laughs, first words, learning how to ride a bike, taking the training wheels off, first day of school, kindergarten graduation, first sleep over, first birthday party with friends, first dance, first broken heart, 8th grade graduation, first day of high school, first real boyfriend, first real break up, first best friend fight, first license picture, first car, first fender bender, high school party, high school graduation, off to college, finding the one, college grad, engagement, wedding, baby news and then there life cycle begins just as our own... But what happens when that constant cycle stops? What happens to a family when a loved one is taken away? We know the circle of life but how can it stop after only first words? There is so much more to be done... So many others that have done ALL the steps and are ready... I am not questioning God because I am a believer in his word and the choices he makes are for a reason, but as a single person you often question... What can I do? What is there to say to help? I know the answer is Theres nothing I can say or do to help heal this familys pain and sorrow they are going through every second of every waking day! I dont know if I was in the situation how I would react.. Mad at what happened, Upset because everyone is saying the same thing, Frustrated because there is NoThInG I can do, Thankful for all the people that care??? I question life in a way... We are told that nothing we cant handle will be given to us, but the question is how can we handle some things that are... A mother and father should never have to bury their child, a mother and father shouldnt have to let go of their baby girl at the age of 1 soon to be 2 years old.. ~*~*~God, give this family strength. Let them know you are with them. Help heal their pain and help them come to you for comfort through your word.. Let them know there is no understanding to why things happen but you do it for a reason. Give them peace in knowing Lia is in heaven with you by your side dancing and singing with the other angels. Lord give strength to those who are angry with why this has happend and question you, let us all know that time is understanding and healing.. Amen*~*~ I am no holy roller by any means but I have faith and often find peace in times of sorrow through God... Please take a second to hug your parents, your grandparents, nieces, nephews, cousins, family and friends of any kind... For tomorrow may be to late... Reach out to the ones who have heart ache, to the ones who need a shoulder or hand to lean on, for someday they will know your name if they see you in HeAvEn! Thanks for reading! God Bless! *Kala =)